This blog addresses various emotional aspects of experiencing infertility. It is written by a clinical psychologist who specializes in infertility counseling. Thank you for reading, and best of luck with your journey!

Monday, February 23, 2015

Anonymous egg donor selection: a few tips

 Choosing an anonymous egg donor can seem like a very daunting task.  Usually, people don't arrive at choosing an egg donor without having experienced some emotional turmoil already, so they are already likely be stressed and upset.  Thus, when faced with the job of selecting maternal genetic material for their family, many people understandably become overwhelmed!  I've been fortunate to work with many couples and individuals who have gone through this process, and the amazing thing is that they all seem to find donors that they connected with and felt good about--so I think that although it can be quite intimidating at first, it usually has a positive outcome!

Here are few tips about choosing an egg donor.

--Don't try to replace yourself.

Some women begin the process of choosing an egg donor with a very specific list of qualities they would like in their donor, only to find that very few women can match all of these criteria.  Often, this stems from a wish to "replace" the woman with a copy of herself.  It is very difficult to mourn the loss of a genetic connection to a child, and perhaps the fantasy of a nearly identical donor seems like it might soften the blow.  This type of defensive strategy can be problematic for a couple of reasons.  First, it can make it very difficult, if not impossible, to find an available egg donor.  Secondly, even if such a donor exists and is available, it may delay a woman's grieving process about her reproductive misfortune.  In my experience, there is really no way to avoid dealing with such feelings of loss, and I think it's probably better to do that at the front end of the egg donation process rather than after a pregnancy is achieved or children are born.

--There is an illusion of choice.

Looking through an egg donor database for the first time can be an overwhelming, overstimulating experience.  It can appear as though there are hundreds or even thousands of possibilities.  However, that is somewhat of an illusion.  In many egg donation databases, women have applied to be egg donors but have not been screened medically or psychologically.  Thus, a certain percentage of them will be eliminated as possible donors because they won't pass one of these screenings.  In addition, potential donors are usually listed on databases months or even years after they apply to be an egg donor.  Thus, by the time they are selected, their life circumstances may be very different and they may no longer be available to be egg donors.  Further, they may be available to be egg donors in general, but not for the specific time window, or clinic location that you require.  By the time unavailable donors are eliminated, the selection pool becomes much smaller (and perhaps more manageable).

--No matter which donor you choose, epigenetics and random chance may be big factors in the characteristics of your children.

Just as their really aren't any genetic guarantees in a typical baby-making situation, random chance plays a role in the egg donation process as well.  Selecting a donor with specific characteristics doesn't give any guarantee that your child or children will also have those characteristics.  Further, science is just beginning to understand the role epigenetics plays in turning on or off different traits.  It is theorized that different uterine environments turn on or off different genetic traits present in the DNA.  A fetus with identical DNA that develops in one woman's uterus may end up being in some way different than if he or she developed in another woman's uterus.  At this point, we don't fully understand the extent of the uterine environment's influence on genetic traits.

--Find a donor with whom you feel some sort of connection.

Given all the unpredictability in the situation, both in terms of donor availability and genetic factors, my best advice is to find a donor with whom you feel some sort of emotional connection.  Perhaps she excels at the same sport that you do, or her favorite book is the same as yours.  Ideally, she should be someone that you feel you would like if you actually met her, and about whom you have very positive feelings.  After all, you are going to be having thoughts and feelings about your donor for the rest of your life, as a parent and in regards to your own infertility.  It helps to feel positively about her from the beginning.

--Don't forget the pragmatic issues!

I think one of the main criteria on which to evaluate a potential egg donor is on her ability to follow through with the many demands of the process.  For an egg donor to successfully complete a cycle, she must be able to be consistently on-time to appointments, be able to follow complicated instructions, be able to inject herself with the correct medications at the correct times, and be alert to any medical problems or side effects she might experience.  To do all of this, she needs to be responsible, organized and consistent.  When looking at a donor profile, look for evidence of the donor candidate's level of organization, follow-through, and responsibility.  For instance, if she has a consistent work history, or was able to complete a higher education degree or a vocational training program, chances are she has utilized these skills in her life.  If a written statement is included in the profile, you might be able to glean further evidence of her level of responsibility and her understanding of how important her role in the process is to intended parents.

Finally, perhaps it goes without saying, but I do find myself saying it to clients quite a bit anyway:   proven donors may have a better chance of ensuring a successful cycle.  Not only do proven donors have an established history of fertility, they are also more experienced with the  appointments and injections.  They know what the process entails, and may be less likely to drop out of a cycle.  However, the most important thing is to feel positively about the donor, and that might be a more important variable than prior experience.  Every donor has to have a first cycle!

At the end of the day, there's always a risk that things aren't going to go well, no matter what donor you might pick.  However, if you try to find a responsible, available donor with whom you feel some sort of commonality or connection, you've pretty much covered your bases in terms of the variables you can control.

Thanks for reading, and please let me know if you have other tips for choosing an egg donor.  Suggestions and comments are always welcome!

Monday, February 16, 2015

"Just relax"...again? Does a reduction in anxiety levels increase pregnancy rates? Summary of a new meta-analysis

As a former infertility patient, and as now as a psychologist working in the area of reproductive mental health, the oft-repeated statement, "Just relax, and it will happen (referring to pregnancy)" has always made me cringe.  It has always seemed overly simplistic and somewhat pejorative--as if the woman's feelings were somehow preventing her from conceiving.

Thus, I did a double-cringe when I first read the abstract for the following article:

 Frederiksen, Farver-Vestergaard, Gronhoj Skovgard, Ingerslev, and Zacharaie (2015) Efficacy of psychosocial interventions for psychological and pregnancy outcomes in infertile women and men: a systematic review and meta-analysis--- which can be found here.

In this study, the authors conducted a meta-analysis of 39 different studies.  The studies looked at the effect of psychosocial interventions on mental-health symptom reduction and clinical pregnancy rates in research subjects undergoing infertility treatment.  A meta-analysis uses other clinical studies found in the literature as its source of data.  Studies were only included in this meta-analysis  if they studied infertile participants, presented data regarding some sort of psychosocial intervention program (such as cognitive-behavior therapy, group therapy, etc.), measured outcome variables such as stress, distress and pregnancy outcome, both before and after the psychosocial intervention occurred, and used a quantitative research method.  The data for the 39 studies were analyzed for a number of variables.  Interestingly, they found that women who had received any type of psychosocial intervention were twice as likely to become pregnant than women who had not received psychosocial treatment.  Although they found that the psychosocial interventions were effective at decreasing both symptoms of anxiety and depression, only a reduction in anxiety levels was significantly correlated with an increased pregnancy rate.

On the face of it, this is a quite dramatic finding.  The authors theorized that increased anxiety levels could have a negative effect on the uterine environment, and could thus negatively impact pregnancy rates.  However, they also reported a number of limitations to their study that might also explain their results.  For instance, there was no distinction made as to type of infertility diagnosis or type of infertility treatment received among the different studies.  Obviously, the level of severity of the infertility diagnoses involved among the different studies would have a large impact on pregnancy rates, as would the types of medical treatments offered.  Secondly, the authors of the meta-analysis had no access to the pregnancy outcomes for women who dropped out of the studies.  Without this information, it is hard to obtain a complete picture of what really happened.  In addition, the authors had to contend with "publication bias"--meaning that usually only studies with statistically significant results are likely to be published.  Although information that disproves a hypothesis might be just as important from a scientific perspective, it often is not considered as desirable for publication, leading to the "drawer effect"--it gets left in a desk drawer and never sees the light of day again.  For this reason, looking merely at published research can give a skewed perspective on an issue.  The authors did attempt to find unpublished studies to include in their meta-analysis, but as you can imagine, this is a difficult task.  Thus, the results of their meta-analysis might be skewed in a positive direction towards the positive effects of psychosocial  intervention.

As a mental health clinician, I would love to believe that the psychosocial interventions I offer would double the pregnancy rates among my clients.  Not only would it be great for business, but I would love it if I could have that kind of positive impact on helping people solve such a difficult problem.  However, I have my doubts.  To me, I think the key problem with this study is its inability to distinguish between the types of infertility diagnoses among research subjects.  Imagine Patient A, who has a mild but correctible type of infertility diagnosis.  She receives the appropriate medical care along with a psychosocial intervention.  The psychosocial intervention helps her to better cope with her situation, but as she learns more about her diagnosis and her medical treatment commences, she feels less anxious because she is justifiably optimistic about her prognosis.  And as things go according to plan, she becomes pregnant, and there is a nice, happy ending.  Now imagine Patient B.  Patient B has an unexplained infertility diagnosis with some indications of a larger, more serious problem (let's say her AMH and FSH levels are borderline, for example).  Patient B might not get assigned a psychosocial intervention treatment due to luck of the draw.    As her infertility treatment progresses, it doesn't go well, with failed cycles, and her prognosis looks poor.  Naturally, she's not going to get pregnant during the study, because she has an underlying medical problem which prevents it, and she's also going to understandably get more anxious and distressed as she realizes what her situation truly entails.  But we can be pretty sure that her anxiety isn't at the root of her problems getting pregnant.  As you can see from these two examples, diagnosis and situation makes all the difference--but the study isn't able to pick that up.

Thus, I don't think this study really can tell us with any certainty that decreased anxiety levels are associated with increased pregnancy rates.  I believe that psychosocial interventions, such as therapy, relaxation training, or support groups can be helpful during infertility treatment, in that they can provide support and coping tools during a difficult time.  I think that is an incredibly valuable thing in and of itself.  But I don't think that the data support the idea that a psychosocial intervention is going to increase pregnancy rates.

I also think we can all still be justified in getting annoyed the next time someone tells us to "just relax".

Thank you as always for reading, and I look forward to any comments and questions you may have!

Thursday, February 12, 2015

Hello Again!

Back to blogging after a long absence!

I don't know exactly where all the time went between my last post and this one!  Actually, to be honest, I do know.  Things got really busy with clinical practice, and at the same time, things became somewhat challenging personally as well.   For a long time, the act or writing seemed to require more emotional energy than I had to spare.  And of course, there is the classic snowball effect.  The longer you let something go, the more difficult it is to get back to it.  So the months turned into years...and here we are.

Although I'd stopped writing about infertility and it's discontents, I certainly haven't stopped thinking about it, and there are so many times that I've had moments that I wanted to share in this blog.  But to begin with, I want to relate this clinical vignette that recently occurred, which I feel best exemplifies my experiences in the meantime:

I was having a session with a client who does not have a history of infertility.   What she does have is a long history of anxiety.  She has lived her life constantly afraid; afraid of natural disasters, afraid of storms, afraid of criminals, afraid of car accidents, afraid of an airplane crashing on her head, etc., etc.  We were discussing the recent changes in her situation, which of course have her feeling unsafe, when it occurred to me: she has the fantasy that there will be a time in which none of these threats exist, in which she will feel safe.  Thus, she keeps trying to do whatever she can to make this possible.

Being the killjoy that I am, I waited for a pause, and then stated that I thought that there had never been a time in human history when things were safe, or went well.  In fact, right now might just be the safest time, ever.  And she was right, it wasn't too safe--but that perhaps complete safety was impossible.

After a pause, she asked me, "So what you are basically saying is, life is unsafe and it sucks.  And there's nothing I can do about it."  I replied, "Yes, that is what I am basically saying.  And I'm also saying that you probably need to get used to it like that, because it's not going to change."

My client, who was gracious enough to have another session with me after this display of my charm, told me that although she found my words quite upsetting, she also found them liberating.  With the possibility of achieving a safe world off the table, she had more energy to put into enjoying her unsafe world.

I think the same principle holds true for dealing with infertility; for so many of us, the loss of the fantasy of the easily-conceived baby and the the easy, adorable pregnancy is one of the most painful aspects of infertility.  Only by allowing that fantasy to diminish in intensity can we experience any amount of relief.  If there is one thing that infertility reveals to us, it's that our world isn't perfect, and it's never going to be.   

I hope to be writing more regularly in the future, and as always, appreciate your comments, thoughts, and suggestions.